I have a question. Why have anything? When you have everything you can you can lose it and feel emotions towards it. Why just not have anything at all. I wish I could give up my music talents so I wont suck any more. I want to give up my jealousy for other certain reason. I want to give up on everything in my life cause sometimes it just makes me feel like total shit. Yeah it does oh well I am fucking dumbass Alex Holigores. Why have anything when you can have nothing. That my question. Maybe everyone in this world is living the wrong life. I mean shit. I hate this. Some times I really feel like giving up on stuff I love dear to my heart and I hate when I feel this way cause then I dont even feel like living afterwards but I would never feel this way if I never had anything. I mean I would never be happy cause I would never have it, but then I wouldnt be sad ever csaue I would never know what it is to have it. I would just be there, oh well. WELL FUCK LIFE AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE IN IT. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

~YEAH...~

-Someone not wanting to live

Yeah I know I havent wrote in this in a while but hey why not... well yeah feel like shit.. have been feelign liek shit.. and I will continue.. cant wait till college...OKAY... later

~FUCK~

-SHIT HEAD

Well you guys I got bored and I was starting to dislike this xanga so I made a new xanga check it out http://www.xanga.com/krazy0tter . Well this is my last entry under this xanga name.

~Tootles~

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For now my xanga is offically cancel for a while I need to take a break....

~Laterz....~

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Well let me start off by saying I dont think I ever should of entered what I did below cuase I think it just caused me more pain but, oh well you cant change what you have already done and you can only make the future better so yeah..... Well I am bummed out right now NOT feeling up to par and yeah I will get better soon... Well I had my spark of happy dayz already thats all I needed.....

~Yeah..~

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